Excuse time is over. There is ALWAYS an excuse to not eat right and exercise and let's get real here, NONE of them hold water. I have gained 50 fucking pounds this year. 50. Fucking. Pounds. That's a lot. Like... a way lot. Cielo's food truck took a Mother's Day shot of Jessi and I the other day and I didn't even want to tag myself in it because I look HORRIBLE!! It's amazing how sometimes I can look in the mirror and convince myself that I don't..... I went shopping over the weekend because none of my clothes fit and it sucked. A lot. Like.... a way lot. I need to look at this is in a different way. I am not taking care of myself. I am living in the moment doing whatever I want, whenever I want. It still feels like a party when Lonnie and I are spending time with each other and party to me = YAHOOOO eat whatever you want. So I need to learn that happy does not equal party! I have 5ks coming up. I have clothes that I would lik
The kids went off with Rick to the cottage on East Grand Lake that we all used to go to every year. I am having "feelings." Hate that shit.... lol! I am happy with my life now and I wouldn't go back for a million dollars, but sometimes it's the small stuff I miss... like the week of preparing for camp and loading up the car until there wasn't one lick of space left. Having in-laws to call and talk to and that call me to ask me stuff all the time too. My air conditioned bedroom ;-) My old running route My sink and faucet.... damn they are the best sink and faucet ever Not having to go upstairs to go to the bathroom The awesome parties that we used to have and that have gone on now without me Anyway... you get the idea. I mean obviously there is the "big stuff" too... like feeling bad that the kids have to live in two houses now and stuff... but it's really the little stuff that hits me now and then like a ton of bricks. Or maybe
Last week we got around 2 feet... Last night 4 more inches.... And today it's snowing again. Geez. We have made the best of of though with lots of movies and cooking and of course pinning ;) I have spent this morning working on gussying up my blog and getting realllllly annoyed with blogger because it won't let me add all my friend's and family's blogs over on the side bar. It says they are there... But I have eyes... And they are not! While I have been fooling around on blogger and Pinterest, Lonnie has been drawing up plans to build me a bed I saw and fell I love within Pinterest. The man loves him a good project Tomorrow morning we leave for Nashville to visit Mom and I can't wait to escape this frozen tundra for a few days. We have some fun things planned and I am excited for some good running weather to get me back on track!
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