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I bought this shirt the weekend that I turned my ankle in the Old Port.  I actually bought it AFTER I turned my ankle,  limping through Old Navy's active wear section looking for deals.  Even though my ankle was twice it's normal size and I could barely walk.... I still wholeheartedly believed that I would be starting to run again by the next weekend.... or even by then end of THAT weekend, as I had brought my stuff with me for a picturesque run on the beach.  Yes,  I am a moron who lives in fairy-make-believe-land. Five-ish months later................ I am at the doctor for my yearly physical.  As she is going through the screening I casually mention the ankle thing and how it still kinda hurts and feels weird and is swollen.  She takes a look at it... and then the lecture comes.  Nutshell:  "Worst possible sprain you could have....  May even have broken it... too late to do anything about that now.... you need to get into physic...

We are going strong on our new way of eating.  There are still some moments days when it feels like we are "on a diet."  But those moments are getting fewer and more far between.  When either one of us has a case of the 'snackies' ...we are supportive and think of alternative snacks or activites, OR we daydream out loud about Saturday night's cheat meal :-)  Tomorrow marks 5 weeks that we have been eating this way and we both are feeling fantastic and losing weight!  (Of course, being a man... Lonnie is basically melting away like a snowman in July, and I am... well.... not losing quite as quickly.  lol) We are leaning heavily towards a Paleo lifestyle...  while also watching carbs.  Low carb and Paleo kind of go hand-in-hand since Paleo = eating only fruits, veggies, meats, nuts and seeds.  But dairy is a Paleo no-no... and I am not sure I ever want to give up dairy... and by dairy I mean cheese.    I am eating barely any carbs t...

I think I may be addicted to change.  The second I start to feel like things could possibly be getting stale.... dull.... boring.... I must shake things up a bit!  What's been on the change docket lately? 1. Almost 4 weeks ago Lonnie and I stopped eating processed food and started limiting carbohydrates, except on Saturday nights!  The pictures of me on Jessi's graduation day were a harsh, harsh slap in the face that I was out of control.  So now I am back in the driver's seat, and this car is in high gear!  Some amazing things have happened since I made this change!!  My restless legs syndrome is all but gone.  I had started taking gabapentin as it was interfering with my sleep and life in general, but a couple weeks ago, I forgot it one night, then forgot it again the next night and a week later, realized.... I AM NOT WIGGLY!  I have NO idea what it is that stopped the wiggles.  Was it sugar?  Wheat? Wine?  Who fucking knows???...

"OK... 30 more minutes til it's time to go...."  "OK.... 15 more minutes...."  "OK..... let's go!" "HELLO!?? .... I am not kidding... Get out of the water."  "I am not playing, If you aren't out of that water by the time I count to 3....." Those days are done. It appears I am entering yet another new phase in life.  A phase where I am spending less time... ok NO time... making sammiches and kissing boo-boos, and more time figuring out what to do with all this time!  Jessi has graduated high school, and spends all her time working or with her friends... and VERY soon will not even be living here :-O  Sean goes to visit his Dad 3 weekends a month, and even when he IS home, he is pretty much sequestered in his room, aka 'Electronic Wonderland,' unless we can entice him with something more exciting and fun. So that leaves Lonnie and I with most of our weekends free to do... whatever!  This past weekend my buddy K...

She freakin' went and grew up on me.  Without my consent, mind you.  Just freakin' did it.  I know EVERYONE says this, but I honestly do not know where the time went!  It seems like just yesterday she was 3 years old dressed up in the thousandth princess costume of the day asking me for more teddy grahams. NOW.... she is a confident, strong, sassy, sweet, intelligent, young woman who not only knows what she wants-- when she wants it-- but also strong enough to know and admit when she DOESN'T know what she wants!  I am super proud of her and excited to see where this next journey takes her.  Today, her major is Health Sciences, which is USM's version of Pre-Med.  I don't know if she will really ride this "I wanna be a doctor" train all the way to the station, but it will sure be a fun ride ;-) It's going to be soooooo weird when she leaves.  Sean said at dinner to Lonnie and I the other night, "It's going to be weird ...

Alternate title: I need a freakin' hobby! My new job is a very unique creature.  I suddenly have the luxury of BUCKETS of free time.  Alone time.  Me time. Time which I, for the most part, have no clue what to do with. I work 12 hour shifts.  I work Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Friday overnight.  But these "12 hour shifts" are actually just me being 'on-call' for people having mental health crisis episodes.  If there are no crisis-ey things happening, I am just out living my life, doing whatever I want. How it works: I get a call from a person at the Crisis Hotline saying that they have been talking with someone who needs someone to meet with them.  I call the person, and then I either go meet with them someplace, or just the phone call with me was enough to get them through.  We also do the mental health evaluations for St. Joseph's Hospital.  So if someone comes to the ER feeling suicidal, or having attempted suicide, they call us to c...

So as any reader around here knows, I read a couple books this past fall that changed my thinking about my relationship with food. These couple books made it sound SO easy to just "Eat when you're hungry... Stop when you're full!" Which makes complete sense. These books also all preach... NEVER diet again!  NEVER get on a scale! NEVER count calories! My life has changed since reading those books and I will use a lot of the tools for the rest of my life.  My biggest take-always that I still use every day... Checking in with myself to see WHY I am eating.  Am I actually hungry or am I anxious, bored, sad, angry.......  I have learned that boredom/droned-on-the-couch-in-front-of-tv eating is my biggest problem area.  And while I still eat when I am not hungry... I at least take a minute to recognize what I am doing and why... and then make a CONSCIOUS CHOICE to do it anyway.  I am no longer a mindless eating factory. The scale.  I have bee...