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I fell off it.  I fell hard.  Last weekend I got a raging eye infection and I was MISERABLE.  So... as I so often do, I ate my feelings and I got lazy and complacent... and then stayed in that 'eating and lazy space' all week long. Tomorrow I am starting full-on training for my 5k.  I can't slack anymore!!  I am going to get up and run every other day before work.  It's SO HARD to do this because I would much rather snuggle with my honey.  My favorite part of the day is the morning half-asleep snuggles before starting the day... but he does live here now, so I really have no excuse anymore.  My old excuse was that I have to covet the time we have together since we lived in separate houses. So tomorrow...  ON IT!  I will NOT give up!!

Checking in!  We have been busy around here with the kids finishing up school and getting Lonnie and Avalanche all moved in.  ...and shaving Jessi's head!  So it's good busy!!  With school over, I am now the mom of a 6th grader, and a senior in high school!!  YIKES!! Lonnie is trying to get a small business started selling survival kits and knives and custom knife sheaths, -- and later on, classes.  So we have both been busy with that, making the kits, writing and editing his blog Clarke's Bushcraft and Survival  and the listings on Etsy and Ebay.  And I actually have dug out my "fancy camera" instead of only using my iphone to photograph the kits... which has got me wanting to take more photos again!  I am super proud of him for going for it like he is.  He loves working with his hands and making things... and "puttering" in his toolshed (formerly known as my storage shed...lol) and he loves the outdoors.  He is very int...

Being an emotional eater sucks. Being an emotional eater at "that time the month" when you are highly emotional anyway and have cravings for things like cheez-it's and sugar cereal and sour patch kids and Ben and Jerry's coffee Heath bar crunch sucks extra super hard. Being an emotional eater when you are chomping at the bit for the love-of-your-life to move in with you and it's just days away... But it's not here yet and tonight you are alone... Extra alone because your kids are at their Dad's house... Extra extra super sucks. I came home and ate half a box of cheez it's and then attacked a box of frosted flakes. I went over my calories by 263. Damn. I was then feeling my typical "oh well this day is blown, I may as well eat whatever." I was also trying to talk myself into going out for a walk or a run but feeling very lazy and tired...another of those wonderful things about pms ;-). As I sat here arguing with myself.... Enter Butters ...

So I went over calories yesterday.  In the past I would have said that  "I fell of it" ...but I didn't fall off anything.  I ate a cupcake... and maybe some additional frosting (which in my journal I just counted as another cupcake) while baking a school project with Jessi and still chose to have my snackies of frosted flakes and cheez-its while watching TV.  That's life.  It happens.  And in the grand scheme of things... I am still under since so many days I have come short of my calorie goal.  Still killing it.  Still "on it."

I am so proud of myself!!  I am freaking killing it!  I even had a "planned cheat day" and when I looked back at my calories for the week, I was still under my weekly calorie budget. Stuff I have done to kill it... Went way out of my comfort zone and ordered swordfish with cucumber lime salsa when I went out to dinner with the girls Friday night.  I have always been all "I have to eat bad food in order to have fun out at dinner" in the past.  Guess what!?  I STILL had fun, AND I tried a new food and it was BEYOND delicious!!! I have exercised almost every day and yesterday got back to lifting with Lonnie.  I am so sore today and I love that feeling. I read this AWESOME blog post  on My Fitness Pal called "Why you should stop "working out" and start training" and it really resonated with me.  I am now officially IN TRAINING for my 5k in August!! As part of my training I st arted running again using a 5k program on my phone. (I use the runmeter app...