Constant Commentary

I read a book last year called "The 5 Love Languages."  It's a really good book that really helped me to see what matters to me in a relationship, and how to recognize what matters to my partner.  I highly recommend it.  Yesterday I was talking to Lonnie about it and he took the quiz and we talked a lot about what each of us does that shows the other that we love and care for them. Then... later on.... we were in the car talking about supper and I opened my console and showed him my stash of caramel creams and suggested maybe that would be my supper.  As I knew he would... he gave me a stern disapproving look and then said "You really love seeing me exasperated with you, don't you?"  I laughed and grinned said, "Why yes... yes I do!"  In itself, this was not a key moment, or anything groundbreaking.... ......Until I was thinking about it all while I was laying in bed this morning and connected the dots. I DO love it!  I DO love it when he ...

So..... I am 39.  That happened.  Just a hairs-length from 40.  I acted much more upset about it than I really was.  Yeah... 40 seems super old to me still and I don't wanna be old.... BUT... I am far too happy with my life now to worry about it. I didn't 'waste' half my life with the wrong person as I have heard from divorcees say.  I did spend way too much of my life being angry, nasty, and bitchy... but if I hadn't, I wouldn't be who I am now, and I pretty much love who I am now.  Yeah I need to lose a few pounds... and I would like to be neater ;-)  But....  - I am content.  - I wake up thankful every day for my friends, family, and love.   - I keep a daily gratitude journal and never have any trouble thinking of things I am grateful for.  In fact... I have trouble keeping it to one thing! -I work to be a better person on the outside everyday, but more importantly on the INSIDE too! In summary... I...

I have drank... drunken? my last fountain soda.  It happened on Friday after weeks of deliberating and then a movie that put me over the edge called 'Hungry for Change" that just added fuel to my fire about the shut I put in my body and the bodies of the people I love. Here is just a snippet of what the movie shed light on...  'Seven side effects of diet soda' . Obviously I have heard all this before, but where this has been on my mind awhile, this time it really got lodged into my brain. Why does this deserve a whole blog post??  Well because a HUGE part of my hesitancy to quit is that I feel like my morning fountain soda is part of who I am!  It's my "thing" ....and everyone knows it!  Stopping at the store, filling that cup with just the right amount of ice and then bringing my soda to work and drinking it until exactly 10am at break time where I finish it off and refill the cup with water... It's all my thing!!  My daily ritual!!  So this is...

I have had this sucker on my wish list for over TWO YEARS!! When I was visiting mom, she had one and I used it almost every day to toast my pita bread to eat with my favorite edamame hummus. She said its also awesome for steaks and stuff. So that was it.... I was in!! (Also I noticed the price was down from 199 to 69!!) So here it is and I was sooooo wanted to make a perfectly cooked steak on it tonight and was all bummed out web I remembered that I am a vegetarian until Monday. Boo :) BUT THEN.... My awesome man suggested that rather than ruin my goal...we make spinach and artichoke panini sammiches!! HELLS YES WE WILL!!!