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So as any reader around here knows, I read a couple books this past fall that changed my thinking about my relationship with food. These couple books made it sound SO easy to just "Eat when you're hungry... Stop when you're full!" Which makes complete sense. These books also all preach... NEVER diet again!  NEVER get on a scale! NEVER count calories! My life has changed since reading those books and I will use a lot of the tools for the rest of my life.  My biggest take-always that I still use every day... Checking in with myself to see WHY I am eating.  Am I actually hungry or am I anxious, bored, sad, angry.......  I have learned that boredom/droned-on-the-couch-in-front-of-tv eating is my biggest problem area.  And while I still eat when I am not hungry... I at least take a minute to recognize what I am doing and why... and then make a CONSCIOUS CHOICE to do it anyway.  I am no longer a mindless eating factory. The scale.  I have bee...

Eat when you are hungry and stop when you are full.  WHO KNEW!!!!???  It sounds SO DUMB that I DIDN'T trust my own body to let me know when it needed food and when it needed something else. Today a co-worker who had been on vacation since the week before Thanksgiving came back today and said "Wow!  Are you losing weight?  I can really see it in your face."  Yeah BUUUUUDDY!!! I feel slimmer, and I feel better about myself.  I have NO CLUE "how much" weight I have lost and I don't care to know.  I refuse to ever again let a tiny little electric box tell me how I should feel about myself.  I can't even TELL you how many times I was feeling AWESOME about a diet, only to step on the scale, see the number had not changed-- or worse, had gone UP... and watched every ounce of that AWESOMENESS be immediately sucked out of me... which then led to 'Oh well... this isn't working and there is a box of cheez its and a pint of Ben and Jerry's out ther...

Winter Zombie It was a cold and blizzardy day yesterday. Got around 8 inches.... and it snowed too!! I never did make it to the gym.  Then I got called to do an awake overnight shift at the children's crisis unit.  UGH.  I did not bring any snacks with me as I was in a rush to get out the door, I probably couldn't have eaten anyway, overnight shifts when I have to stay awake all night make me sick to my stomach and get raging headaches. I DID make a responsible choice when I got home though and had a protein-filled small breakfast before hitting the sack. As I was only able to sleep til around noon, I skipped the gym again today as I am a bit on the zombie side.  I definitely could have gone.  But I didn't.  I just HATE going out in the cold, trudging through the snow, warming up the car, scraping the car, and then getting back into the freezing car after the gym.  I realize this is a ridiculous excuse. I DID, however, stick to watching the carbs and d...